Ups and Downs; Highs and Lows

Thought I would post a lil' somethin', somethin' for ya'll today!

I have been on a glorious, yet uneventful "stay-cation" (you know, where you are on vacation, but can neither afford or have the desire to do anything bad-ass or go somewhere cool...you just waste your free time doing all the lame crap like laundry and errands you don't have time for when you have to work.)

Although I have found myself in more of a keto rhythm lately and am getting better with knowing the do's and don'ts of keto-adaptation and did fairly well to stay the course on Christmas with this tasty meal of Fatty uncured ham, mashed cauliflower with grass-fed butter (yumm KERRYGOLD is the shiz-nit) with green beans sautéed in butter, of course, and a few brussels sprouts- these have a few more carbs than most  green veggies, but this was my version of indulgence for the day!

What F-in ruined me was the undying craving I had not for pasta and bread, 

but SUGAR!!

sugar.sweets.chocolate.cake 

ANYTHING with that damn crack they call sugar in it!

It came out of nowhere and hit me like a 2x4!

I tried eating more fat like to forums, videos and books said...but my brain was on sugar...literally. You think I'm kidding, look it up! Your brain reacts to sugar the exact same way as crack cocaine!! Crazy I know. Legally addicted I guess you would say. 

So, I'll admit it! I GAVE IN! I shoved a sample bag of toffee down my throat I got from a work associate as a gift that I had been hiding from myself. I scarfed it down like Scarlet O'Hara when she found that damn measly carrot in the ground....

Except I wish I would have choked on that damn toffee the way she did that lame ass carrot, because not 20 minutes later I was in a whole different world! I was lethargic and my brain felt like it had been taken over by tiny sugar aliens. LOL! 

Instead of getting hyper and running around like a 5 year old on Mountain Dew, I felt like complete SHIT! I honestly felt drugged and  all I wanted to do was lay in the recliner and take a damn 3 hour nap. I felt my blood sugar shoot through the roof!!!


THAT WAS THAT! I made myself get up and go to the gym! 


And NO MORE of this "I'll hide it from myself"shit! It goes straight in the TRASH! If it's there, I'll know it is there and it is just temptation. Even if I forget about it for a week, or three, my brain will go "ah ha! Remember that chocolate bar you put on the top shelf in the laundry closet? Yeah, that ONE! You know you want it!! Leeeet's eaa-t.." and there it is halfway gone and shoved down my throat mid thought!

I can resist soda, chips, french fries, and most any fried food, but sugar and chocolate are my Achilles heel!My ULTIMATE WEAKNESS!

Once I realized that if I have it in my home I will indulge in it (no matter how good I think the hiding place is), I made a rule for myself...don't bring that shit inside these four walls! I think it's a pretty great rule for keeping strong!

What's your food addiction or weakness that is hard for you to kick? How to you resist or eliminate the desire when it comes knocking?